January 2012
177 posts
sucks
Feeling so sucky now, inferior. I have a fucked up attitude, i’m so fucking selfish, and i only ‘come to light’ after all the shit is done, and the regret steps in too late. I am like never ever good enough, and i swear this feeling sucks to the fucking maximum because i am always, always screwing things up. Dislike it when things become like this and hate myself so much.
to my dear boy
Well darling you won’t be seeing this, I just feel like penning down my thoughts here instead of blogger. So, you got back your results today, and it was not in the least great for you. You may seem to be smiling all the way through, but I can tell that you are feeling stressful and regretful. Deep inside, you wished that time could rewind and you would certainly have put in more effort. But...
pray
The anxiety in me is a real bitch now, i’m feeling nervous and uncomfortable. Please, let his efforts to change be recognized, let everything be fine later on. I don’t want to see him discouraged, and disappointed. Dear god, he is sincere and he really wishes to change, and he will. With faith and hope.
Xxx.
